Does It Feel Better To Let Go?

for the past week, my allergy has steadily gotten worse. and yesterday i actually woke up to one stupid red patch right below my left eye, so it made me look like i got punched, or something :(

and i had patches all over my legs. and my back. and my hands. and my necks.

therefore anil teased me mercilessly about them T.T sigh.

THIS morning, i decided i looked like a friggin mutated monster set loose from the X-Men Mansion and there was no way i was stepping foot in school, so i skipped it (gee, pn nancy probably loves me that much more), and went to the doctor.

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who gave me a jab.

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in my ass butt bum.

it didn’t really hurt but wtf okay sigh now i’m on medication as well, and i got the cream thingy from the clinic too. but in the past five hours my skin went back to normal! :D

i doubt i’m allergic to food. because i’ve been eating the same old stuff since forever and there wasn’t really anything that triggered my allergy or whatever .. i think it’s stress. HAHA and the doctor actually agreed with me!

now i can justify myself :)

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Spontaneous To The Point of Being Reckless

RANDOM PICTURES! :D

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this is me, pretending to sweep the floor, in my school uniform. see the lengths i go to for my Moral folio project for spm. wtf.

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pimping the timberland t-shirt. oh wait you can’t see it :D my bad.

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introducing rekha.

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introducing the new barbie :)

Wanted, A Review

i’ll be honest: the only reason i watched Wanted is because Angelina Jolie stars in it.

what, i’m not bisexual! :( i just really, really like her, and her tattoos, and her lips, and her missonary work, and charity, and the fact that she drips sexiness. and i’m the only one among my friends who thinks that Jolie is 110% hotter than Jennifer Aniston.

shit now i really sound like i’m bi.

the movie itself, though, isn’t much of a breakthrough. it’s a bit like.. well, have you ever seen an episode of Scrubs? well, the star of the movie Wesley Gibson reminds me of that guy in Scrubs.

the backstory of Wanted postulates that there exists a thousand-year-old secret society of assassins called the Fraternity; whose elite members take killing orders from a .. are you ready? WEAVING MACHINE. (shit if you don’t know what’s a weaving machine you seriously damn potong stim.)

fast forward to the 21st century, the leader of this bunch of assassins, Sloan (Morgan Freeway) explains, the assassins, after getting their assignments via a woven code, kill because it’s “necessary to maintain balance in the world,” he explains.

that’s probably the hardest thing to grasp in this movie, along with the curving bullets. (psychics didn’t teach me that bullets don’t move in a straight line.)

Wesley Gibson is a mild-mannered account manager stuck in a stupid job, a cheating girlfriend and an absentee father. to cope with life, he takes anti-anxiety pills, and one day at the drug store, he met Fox (Angelina Jolie), and his life changes forever.

Wesley finds out that his father was killed on the rooftop of the Metropolitan Building and that he’s the next target. most of the movie is about Wesley being recruited into the Fraternity to avenge his father’s death and training hard, curving bullets, running on trains, getting beaten up, and being slashed.

i liked the action, i loved Jolie and James McAvoy, i hated the ridiculous storyline.

there’s a twist to the movie though, right at the end, but even that’s not as climatic as it should have been.

whatever :) i’m gonna catch the nanny diaries next!

Urbanscapes came and Urbanscapes left.

without me.

:’(

le sigh.

okay but nevermind, cos instead of watching one buck short and estrella and love me butch and seven collar t-shirt and they will kill us all perform LIVE (wtf :( i feel that knife piercing through my heart again), we made a detour, ended up in sunway instead of klpac, and i went and spent rm250 on something.

damn worthwhile, though, i must admit ;)

i’m kinda happy about it :D

that’s one thing checked off my List Of Things To Do Before I Die, at least :) yeah you’re supposed to guess what was it that i did today.

the rest is ermm .. bungee jumping, sky diving, travel, eat all the best food in the world, watch a major rock band live in concert, get famous, publish a book.

actually. there’s probably a lot more to that list :P i’ll get back to this later.

Come Undone

thinking of all the missed phone calls, and midvalley staircases.

i’m staring into space.

given the choice, i’d really like to blog about a lot of things. a lot of personal things. but i think somewhere along the way, i’ve lost that privilege to wear my heart on my sleeve.

therefore. i have nothing to say anymore. not right now.

Am I More Than You Bargained For Yet?

i think, i may be heading for another nervous breakdown. because everything i want, isn’t everything i need, and everything i need, is everything i can’t have.

i’m a crackpot with a split personality.

but anyway :)

yesterday, i was summoned to the counseling room. great. now i’m a MAJOR crackpot with a split personality, AND despite all my efforts to be a low-profile student this year, i still get some one-on-one session with the school counselor. the school counselor.

as if anything and everything i say wouldn’t be all over the staff room.

but she was really nice though. i’ll give her credit for that :) as for whether she actually .. well, helped me? erm. i spent 50 minutes nodding non-stop and smiling till my jaw hurt.

i’m also sick. i think i’ve got a fever coming on, really really soon.

and my rashes decided to prolong their stay all over my body.

PERFECT.

can this week get any worse?

sigh. don’t even answer that.

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edit:

listening to: Godsmack – Running Blind :)

and i’m thinking of you.

The One Who Recommended Me: Lamb Of God

i miss you, friend :(

it’s been a while. sigh. i should probably call you up. and ask you how you’ve been. but i’ve never done that, have i? looking back, you probably think i’m really selfish and self-absorbed. to try to get in touch with you right now, with everything the way it is, would be downright screwed up. because i am one big rolling ball of colliding random thoughts and mess.

i should probably keep my distance. like what he told me to.

i don’t want to, though. i’d like to sit down and talk to you. just talk. about anything and everything and ultimately, nothing at all.

now, wouldn’t that be refreshing?

sigh.

Tagged by Phil :) and Yash

Should he be older or younger?
; older. unless he’s younger but extremely mature, and taller than me, and can enter clubs and cinemas without getting carded. haha :)

What kind of personality should he have?
; a personality that complements mine! :P okay fine. he should be very laid back. spontaneous. talkative. mature. able to relate to me. trustworthy. out to have a good time. patient enough to handle my mood swings. secure. flexible.

Should he be honest or tight lipped?
; i think there should be a balance. sometimes i just don’t want to know the truth.

Should he be serious or carefree?
; carefree all the way :D i have too many issues in my life to handle a serious person.

Should he be spontaneous or hesitant?
; didn’t i already mention spontaneity in the 2nd question?! girls just wanna have fun.

Should he be good looking or intelligent?
; good looking. HAHA :P i’m sorry but i can’t bring myself to kiss a toad. physical attraction is very important in a relationship ;) having said that, he should be smart enough to be able to carry on a conversation with me. because i use a lot of big words. sometimes.

Which film actor should he be like?
; patrick dempsey. McDreamy babyyy :)

Which singer should they be like?
; Adam Levine! *hyperventilates* and Jason Mraz, because he’s got a way with words. the lead singer for Nickelback, because i like their songs. combine all the ruggedness of The Spill Canvas and Three Doors Down and and Jack’s Mannequin, and there you have it :) my dream guy.

Should he make all the money?
; i intend to support myself! :) and therefor, satisfy my shopping needs.

Should he do desk job or physical labour?
; whatever pays the bills :P actually i would want him to do what he enjoys doing.

Do he need to cook?
; damn i hope he does.

Should he bring you to a restaurant or for movies?
; movies. i’m a movie junkie. isn’t it obvious.

What is his best body part?
; wherever he tattoos himself. and piercings. and .. hands. i like hands. and lips.

What body part do you not care about?
; err. his appendix? :P because appendix plays no function at all.

What hair colour should he have?
; brown, black. just dark, i guess. i’m okay with hair dyes, as long as it’s not banana yellow or purple or some weird psycho colour O.O

How tall should he be?
; taller than me.

What should he weigh?
; heavier than me. but then again, he should be thin :) i like thin guys. because that way i can actually put my arms around him :)

What car should he drive?
; whatever he wants to.

What one thing turns you on?
; tattoos and piercings <3 my ultimate weakness, sigh. long fingers. bites and hugs! and guys with mohawks ;)

What one thing turns you off?
; intense emotional attachment.

Who are you going to tag?
; nada, zilch, zero.

Things I’ve Learnt Over The Weekend

1. i am a disappointment. to my mother. fullstop.

2. my class teacher is an annoying, mean biatch.

3. my rashes come back full force when i’m stressed, or when i’m on my period. and when i’m BOTH stressed and on PMS? arrrrgh i turn into a freaking mutant.

4. i should be more careful about where i leave my fags lying around.

5. Su Ann is a crybaby. in the past four months i’ve probably spent more time crying than i have eating.

6. I THINK I’M GETTING BETTER AT POOL! :D i kicked anil’s butt the other day ;) opps. was i supposed to preserve your male ego darling? :)

7. my father is. the best. i can ask for. sigh.

8. i’ve missed Petaling Street’s incredible food, and hilarious (lying, cheating) stall keepers, and the sweet nostalgia the place fondly holds for me. sigh i haven’t found a place that sells better tau foo fah, or beef noodles, or roasted chestnuts, or char siew pau :) not to mention all the fake bags and purses and jerseys and watches .. that all look seriously real. i swear. the other day i was totally attracted to this Chanel (fake) purse that was selling for. like. rm20. but what’s the point sigh. they’re fake.

9. freedom or stability? freedom or stability? freedom or stability? … i’ve chosen stability, but i get to keep my freedom, right? right? whatever.

10. my happiness is directly proportional to the number of blog hits i get a day. haha. no, really. i’m serious.

11. i think i might fail my SPM :(

12. i may be broke but i still splurge on books. i am never getting that stupid bag :(

13. and i’m such a liar.

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okay that’s it. i’m busy sigh no time to jump for FC too :( so many things to do so little time :(

I Wanna Watch The Bank Job :( and Pensil

okay. so first things first.

WHERE HAVE ALL MY READERS GONE??! :( for the past four days, my blog stats have been consistently low :( i feel so unloved. and therefor you are not getting a proper update >:(

.. you get REVIEWS instead! :)

i saw The Incredible Hulk :D

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but what can i say, between Ironman and The Incredible Hulk, i’d take Ironman any freaking day. for one thing, Ironman had Gwyneth Paltrow; Hulk has Liv Tyler. Ironman had an awesome, sexy costume; Hulk is .. a large green computer-generated monster thing. Ironman was charming, arrogant, self-assured, sarcastic, and a womanizing multi-millionaire; the Hulk is .. a poor, angry refugee.

but okay. no need to get all bias and stuff :)

so the movie starts off with a flashback. why do all movies start off with flashbacks? anyway, we’re treated to a full-blown account on what created the creature that is the Hulk, which is a large green thing born from the explosion of some gamma rays thing, who is now the property of the United States government, and has been missing in action ever since the accident in the lab.

our Hulk is Bruce Banner (sigh typical superhero names: Peter Parker, Clark Kent), shown relaxing in Brazil, and taking meditative lessons to keep his emotions under control. because as we all know, when he gets angry, he turns into the Hulk.

“don’t make me hungry .. you won’t like me when i’m hungry,” mistaking angry for hungry, thanks to his incompetence at speaking Portugese, in the movie.

he’s looking for a cure to his condition, and asks help from an online acquaintance, Mr Blue (oh and our Hulk himself is Mr Green), and sends him a blood sample. at the same time, General Joe has assembled a team of fighters to capture the Hulk, and one of them, Blonsky, turns out to be somewhat semi-psychotic and crazy about a good fight.

with the US army hot on his trails, and a psychotic anti-Hulk (the Abomination), and while trying to find an antidote, and saving the city AND maintaining a good relationship with girlfriend Elizabeth Ross, our Hulk has it rough.

it’s not as good as Ironman, but it’s still very entertaining :) speaking of Ironman, towards the end of the movie, our other anti-hero Tony Stark makes a brief apprearance ;)

oops. that was a spoiler haha :P

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i also saw Made of Honour <3

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and between Made of Honour and Enchanted, i’d choose Enchanted any time. but whatever, i mean, Patrick Dempsey, like ohmigawd, McDreamyyy, McMarryMe.

but anil liked the movie. because apparently it reminded him of .. us. like every song in the movie, Dashboard C. ‘Stolen’, Oasis ‘Stop Crying Your Heart Out’. and the part where she locks him out, and tells him through the door that she can’t trust him, and that he only wants her now because he’s afraid of losing her. and the part where he kept quiet about having feelings for her. and the 10 years of friendship thing, except in our case it’s been 10 years since i’ve known him, that’s all.

this movie is about Tom, a serial dater who never wants to settle down, who sleeps with a different girl every night of the week, and has rules for them about not getting too attached emotionally (Don’t Sleep with The Same Girl Two Nights In A Row, etc) and Hannah, his best friend of ten years, who believes in marriage but just hasn’t found Mr. Right.

when she goes away on a business trip to Scotland, it starts to dawn upon him just how much he misses her when she’s gone, and he realizes that he actually has feelings for her. and maybe, just maybe, he’s relationship material, after all.

Tom decides to tell her how he feels when she returned home to New York. except for one thing. she’s engaged. and getting married. like, ASAP.

she asked him to be her “maid” of honour, and he reluctantly agrees, because that seems to be the only way to break off the marriage, steal the bride, and win the game.

yeah, the first five minutes into the movie, you already know what’s going to happen and who’s going to hook up with who and how it’ll work out in the end. but still! it’s McDreamy, okay, so whatever <3

there ARE good moments in the movie, but because it’s so formulaic, you can’t help feeling a little cheated. it tries a little too hard at making you go ‘aww’, and it doesn’t seem to care about making you laugh at all. i mean, it’s supposed to be a romantic comedy, isn’t it?

but all is forgiven. because. they’ve got McDreamy ;)